My mission is to discern, awaken, and inspire truth in myself and others.
“May my tongue be the pen of a skillful writer, my pen be the tongue of a masterful orator, and my words be apples of gold in settings of silver.”
~ Janna Vanderveen
You welcome all,
In this garden with no walls,
Where flowers bloom
At your gentlest touch
And life thrives
At the faintest whisper of your song.
You awaken peace
In the most fractured hearts,
Promising belonging and acceptance
With arms spread wide.
You knit together broken souls
Using words that restore.
Your breath is a soft exhale,
Water that heals,
Quenching the most unbearable thirst.
Your fire refines,
A final, most powerful gift,
Illuminating loveliness in the darkest of places,
Transforming beauty from ashes
And spun gold from coal.
Your heartbeat,
A never-ending lullaby of love.
~ Janna Vanderveen
There is a reason that I cannot stop painting this verdant garden where love itself resides and all belong. It is my heart’s song; a vision of heaven where pain and sorrow are no more, where suffering does not exist, and where all are restored. It is a vision of love itself.
May you dance with the Spirit who is love, wind and fire. May you harmonize with the Creator’s song as you awaken fully to the resonant frequency of his love. May you forever drink from the deep well of living water that is the Savior and be restored and made fully whole.
She never gives up,
For her love is relentless.
She cradles the world in her heart
And awakens transformation with her breath,
For her song cannot be unsung
And the light of her existence cannot be extinguished.
~ Janna Vanderveen
She enters the shadowlands,
Transforming darkness into light
And wasteland into beauty,
For her love liberates the deep
And there is no wound she cannot restore.
~ Janna Vanderveen
She comforts those who grieve and cradles the wounded for she knows that love heals and that every journey deserves to be heard and every story believed. ~ Janna Vanderveen
She wears her love like flower petals, and beauty blossoms in her heart like incense, filling this garden with the heady aroma of her unconstrained joy, and no one can deny their worth. ~ Janna Vanderveen
She waits, her gaze eternal, as she welcomes all, for nothing can destroy her love.
~ Janna Vanderveen
She embraces the universe and cradles the tiniest particles of life with compassion because she knows that this action matters, and that her love will heal the world.
She sings and the birds join in
For they recognize her song as love,
And they know they belong.
~ Janna Vanderveen
She is generous with love
For she was created by love,
To be love to the world.
In this sanctuary,
The lion lies next to the lamb,
And there is no death,
Because all belong.
~ Janna Vanderveen
She is brave and speaks her truth for she matters and her worth is beyond measure.
~ Janna Vanderveen
I have been participating in, studying, and utilizing Internal Family Systems Psychotherapy (Parts Theory) in my life, both personally and as a therapist in my job. While I painted, I contemplated this process of healing which involves identifying, understanding, and interacting with the different parts of ourselves (wounded/exile, protective, firefighter, and core-self parts) as a means of restoring mental balance within our personal mental health system. It takes courage to speak ones truth and mindful empathy and kindness. I find it to be fascinating work and it resonates deeply within me as truth. I have learned that the worst or most shameful parts of ourselves are not to be feared nor ignored, but rather need to be acknowledged, heard, and understood. When we do this, we learn that these parts are ultimately good, in that they exist to help us cope with our unmet needs (even if misguided or unhelpful). The understanding of this allows us to view these wounded parts with empathy and compassion, which brings healing and change, and enables us to ultimately restore harmony into our mental health system as we fully reintegrate the understanding of that self back into the light of our core being.
She is fearless.
Her love is a light,
Which makes all things flourish.
Her home is a sanctuary,
A garden filled with life,
And no one is turned away.
~ Janna Vanderveen
Watercolor and Pastel Painting | Illuminate.
I am continuing to learn new techniques of painting, some whimsical and detailed, others abstract and intuitive. This painting may look more lifelike in comparison to the more illustrative paintings I’ve been painting recently, which might make one think that it was more of a drawing study and more detailed. However, this type of painting embraces the fluidity and uncertainty of watercolors and allows for an almost meditative experience. I’m not sure I’ve done anything like it before. A special shout our goes to Ida Anderson Lang for teaching this particular technique.
Watercolor Painting | Broken yet Beautiful.
What a gift we have been given, to be a light in a broken world, to surrender to love and compassion, to embrace the opportunity we have been given to choose to lay down our lives for our neighbors when it both does not suit us and is downright uncomfortable, to selflessly put others first for their benefit and not our own, and to surrender to that which above all is merciful, peaceful, and good. Their-in lies the inescapable, undeniable, unbeatable beauty of sacrificial love. My heart thrums with this image, as if somehow even in the considering, the idea of love itself breathes life and produces beauty.
“You are no stranger to the scar
So you can have my wounded heart
You weren’t protected from the pain
So you can hold me when I break
You seek me out and find me here
With a love that knows the taste of tears
So I will trust in who you are
You’re no stranger
No stranger to the scar
You are no stranger to the storm
You have calmed these winds before
Your voice still whispers, peace, be still
And the waves still do your will.”
~ Natalie Grant
Watercolor Painting | Hidden
I am drawn repeatedly to paint women peering through secret gardens, as if they are inviting me to enter their sacred sanctuaries where suffering, striving, competition, and inequality no longer exist. They live there, not because of something they have done, but simply because they “are.” In this haven of light, where love is the water of life, all are welcome and none are denied.
Watercolor Painting | Purple Pansies
May your roots sink deep Beside crystal streams. May your leaves climb high In sun-kissed bliss. May your blossoms spread wide Releasing sweetened breath And may you dance In windswept ecstasy. ~ Janna Vanderveen
Watercolor Painting | Lily of the Valley
Watercolor Painting | Lily of the Valley: I’ve been listening to Kari Kobe’s new song “Your Nature” on repeat. It is a salve to my soul. A lovely exhale summarizing the last ten years of painful deconstruction and rebirth. The beauty of it inspires me.
“You bring life to the barren places
Light to the darkest spaces
You bring joy to the broken hearted
Hope to the ones who’ve lost it
You bring peace to the war inside us
Speak and all fear is silenced
There is no desert that your streams can’t run to
There are no ruins that your love won’t make new
You tell the wasteland that it will bloom again
Cause it’s your nature
You will restore the years that shame has stolen
You keep the promises that you have spoken
I know the wasteland will be whole again
Cause it’s your nature.
Sing out o barren woman
Sing out o broken man
Stretch out your hands believing this is your promised land
Break out of disappointment
Break out of hopelessness
Stretch out your hands believing this is your promised land”
~ Your Nature by Kari Jobe
“Roses do not bloom hurriedly; for beauty, like any masterpiece, takes time to blossom.”
― Matshona Dhliwayo
The wind, the trees,
All bend their knees
As love flies next to me,
Like lightest air
It touches my hair
And slowly wakens me.
I sigh its name
The soft refrain
Like water, drenches me.
Its eyes meet mine
Warm flowers that shine
And knows the depths of me.
This garden of light
Where lovers delight
Has won the heart of me.
~ Janna Vanderveen
You prepare a table
Within this valley of beauty
And my tears flow
For I know I am in good hands
You and me together.
~ Janna Vanderveen
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